Chapter 4 - The Drawing Under the BedThat night, Reid refused to sleep.

He sat in the center of his bed with every stuffed animal arranged around him like a jury. His brothers were already asleep across the room, Oliver curled beneath Natalie’s green sweater, Mason holding a wooden dinosaur against his chest.
Reid watched the doorway.
When Avery appeared, he said, “I’m not tired.”
“You look aggressively awake,” she whispered.
He nodded. “That’s because sleep is stupid.”
Avery leaned against the doorframe. “Strong argument.”
“I know.”
She stepped inside and sat on the floor beside his bed. “Want to tell me what’s really happening?”
Reid’s chin lifted. “Nothing.”
Avery glanced around the room. “Then I’ll just sit with Nothing for a minute.”
That was her gift. Julian had noticed it already. Avery did not chase the boys’ feelings. She waited beside them until they stopped running.
After a long silence, Reid whispered, “Grandma is going to make you leave.”
Avery’s heart pulled tight.
“She doesn’t decide that,” she said.
“Grown-ups always say that.” Reid looked down at his blanket. “Then people leave anyway.”
Avery had no easy answer, because children recognized false promises faster than adults did.
“Some people leave because they choose to,” she said carefully. “Some leave because something happens that nobody can control. And some stay as long as they are allowed.”
Reid studied her. “Are you allowed?”
Avery hesitated.
Before she could answer, Julian appeared in the doorway. He had come to check on them, but he stopped when Reid saw him.
“Daddy,” Reid said, voice breaking. “Don’t let her go.”
Julian stepped into the room.
Avery rose. “I can give you two—”
“No,” Reid said. “You stay.”
Again, that word.
Stay.
Julian sat on the edge of the bed. “Avery isn’t going anywhere tonight.”
“That’s not what I mean.”
Julian looked at his son. Really looked.
Reid reached under his pillow and pulled out a folded piece of paper.
“I made this after Mommy died,” he said. “But I hid it because it was bad.”
Julian took it carefully.
The drawing showed their house. Tall. Gray. Huge. At the top were three small stick figures in a window. At the bottom stood Julian, drawn very large but with no face. Beside him was a woman with yellow hair and wings, floating away.
Across the sky, in uneven letters, Reid had written:
Daddy can’t see us.
Julian stopped breathing.
Avery closed her eyes briefly.
Reid’s voice trembled. “You were here but not here.”
Julian stared at the drawing until the lines blurred.
He wanted to defend himself. To explain that he had been drowning. That every room reminded him of Natalie. That looking at the boys sometimes hurt because they had her eyes, her laugh, her stubborn little tilt of the chin.
But Reid was six.
He did not need an explanation.
He needed his father.
Julian set the paper down and pulled Reid into his arms.
“I’m sorry,” he whispered.
Reid stiffened at first, then folded into him.
“I didn’t know how to be here without her,” Julian said. “But that hurt you. And I am so sorry.”
Reid cried silently.
Avery turned toward the window, giving them privacy without leaving.
After a few minutes, Oliver woke. Then Mason. One by one, they climbed into Julian’s arms until he was surrounded by small bodies and impossible forgiveness.
Avery stood by the dresser, tears burning behind her eyes.
She thought about her own father. How he had left after her mother’s illness became inconvenient. How he had mailed checks instead of showing up. How Avery had learned early that absence could sit at the dinner table wearing a familiar face.
Julian looked over the boys’ heads at her.
“Thank you,” he mouthed.
She nodded once.
But inside, Avery felt fear.
May you like
Not because of Vivienne.
Because she was starting to care too much.